indecision

Under economic analysis, we go to school to build upon our human capital, the set of attributes we possess, the aggregate of our being be it our skills, talents, education, training, etc. Your crocheting is as much a part of your human capital as an econ degree will be to mine. Under a different analysis, school serves as a means to agglomerate. It's a place were ideas are shared and expanded upon. It's a birthplace of new ideas and the incubator of those needing tweaking.

To certain people, school is a means by which we figure out the rest of our lives.
College is a marvelous place where we figure out what we are passionate about doing lower division course work and expand on our love for that by declaring whatever we love as a major and then learning what wonderful differences we can make in the world!!

To those people, I say "Nay! And please get off my lawn, you're making all my flowers grow with you damned optimism!"

But, these past 2 years at UCSD have made me really try to figure out what my life will be. At my least ambitious, school was a means to take advantage of the ever increasing wage gap. I would guarantee some greater average income with the investment in school. I have come upon the point in my academic career in which I am the most ambitious. I know what I want, and I just need to do what is necessary to achieve those goals.


I want to teach Economics. I want to teach econ in a university. I would LOVE to teach econ at UCSD. I am a person not easily motivated. What, you ask, would drive a man to want to teach a subject of which he has complained for the past year and a half?

I love econ.
Micro interests me. Macro is okay. Econometrics is fascinating. Game theory intrigues me.
I LOVE public policy, urban development, economic development.


I HATE HATE HATE econ professors (with exception).
I HATE HATE HATE econ textbooks.
I HATE HATE HATE how dismal econ looks to outsiders.


For these reasons, I want to be a professor of econ. I will continue to study what I am in awe of: our market systems, incentive and incentive management, correlation of macroeconomic variables and all these new and wonderful things econ brings. I want to be part of that exception. I want to revolutionize how econ is taught. I want to change people's mindset regarding my supposedly dismal science.

But, to do this. I must pursue a Ph D in econ which would take another 4 or 5 years. I would be 28 by the time I finish.